who's the real me...??

Assalamualaikum...

sorry lh kalau title post ak hari nie cm tak brape nk kene je.. xde pape pown sebenarnye.. cume kadang2 ak xpham ngn diri ak nieh.. ak ase ak cm budak2 pempuan a.k.a gadis2 remaja biasa yg lain jugak.. tapi yg buatkn ak tak pham nye, ade sesetengah mber kpd mber @ mber ak sendri @ Encik Gitar jugak, yg mcm me-label-kn diri ak ngn certain2 gelaran, disebabkn prangai ak / karakter ak / sifat manusie ak yg dah sebati ngn hidup ak nieh... 

contoh.. mber ak penah me-label-kn ak sbg, "Miss Perfectionist", sebab nye, lpas ktowg abis kelas pagi sementara tunggu kelas petang jam 2.00 nnt, kitorang hangout kt Giant jap.. and ade satu part, kitorang duduk lame sangat sampaikn baju skola ak berkedut seribu.. time 2 dah jam 1.30, tapi ak berkeras jugak nak blk umah sebab nak gosok baju... salah ke...?? ak sampai jugak kelas.. biar lh lewat 5minit pown.. chef pown tak masuk kelas lagi kowt.. so, ape salah ak g balik umah untk gosok baju...?? just by that, people easily tagged me as "Miss Perfectionist" (lh sangat.."=_=).. ak tak kesah.. sebab bukan selalu ak wt mcm 2.. tetibe hari 2 ak ase cm tak kene kalo baju skola ak  berkedut cm 2.. fyi, I'm not so perfectionist okeh ~ grr ~

Spongebob : Ape masalah awak Patrick..??
Patrick : Saye tak dapat tengok dahi saye.. (dengan muke yg serius...!!)

yg kedue nye... Diyana Safiah = "Miss Scary".. ok..ak boleh terima.. sebab ak memang selalu sebut, "Err..scary kowt" @ "Scary giler", xkesah la ape pown ayat ak, tapi scary 2 wajib ade.. dh kire cm pelengkap ayat bagi seorang Diyana Safiah.. by that la depa owg tagged ak as "Miss Scary".. tapi, smpai skang nie, dah ade due owg mber ak yg ckap mate ak scary.. sowg mention time kt hostel dulu.. time 2 kitorang ngah syiok2 dok borak.. and smpai mase mber ak yg sorang nie nk bukak cite, ak straight la pndang die sebab nk pay attention.. but, die ckp, "Diyana, ko jangan pandang ak mcm tu..ak takot tgk mate ko"... OMG..!! apekah..?? sangat2 sedih.. ak pown xtaw la mcm mane care ak pandang die time 2 sampaikn die ase cm 2.. and yg mber ak sorang lagi nie pown mcm 2 jugak.. kitorang ngah borak, ak ngn die je.. time 2 kitorang baru balik beli burger Otai.. and sambil makan, kitorang lepak + borak2 jap kt taman bawah apartment nie.. same cm mber ak yg td.. mase mber ak nie dok bercerite, ak pay attention jelh + mesti lh kene ngadap muke die kn..?? and dunno why, tetibe jugak die mention, "Apsal ko pandang ak mcm tu..??scary kowt"... oh tidak.. and my respon, "Nape plak.?"..then she said, "Mate ko..takot ak".. sigh..'=,= jangan takot..ak bukan Oma Bertha.. nggak usah tatap matako ~ ~ ugh ~

seriously I'm not so so so scary... -,-"

dan akhir nye.. untuk Encik Gitar, die memang tak penah tag ak untuk pape gelaran.. but for me, I'm "Miss Confuse" for who I am.. seriously ak tak paham diri ak bile cite ak nie dh melibatkn Encik Gitar.. mcm skang..ak tak taw ape ak nk cakapkn pasal ak + die.. ak paham die dlm proses percubaan untk atasi kesilapan.. but for me..there's no more deeply trust in me to believe him... I'm trying but I keep denying his honest.. dunno why.. :( seriously, mesti die sedih + frust kalau die taw ak ckap cm nie.. tapi..... tapi......... 

ntah la.. cukup lh setakat tapi 2... (see..?? how confuse I am..?? ugh ~ ~ )

accept or not..??

setakat nie jelh dulu.. ak takot kalau banyak sangat pikir kang pipi jadi lebar plak.. apsal jadi lebar..?? try usha video nieh.. kalau paham, sure korang gelak guling2 tapi sopan depan lappy korang 2.. ;)

okeh.. time to go..till next post..tataa ^^

p/s : 

1) I'm not perfect.. not even trying to be one.. ak cume rimas bila rase diri nie selekeh.. and I don't want to be that one too..!! thats worse.. kan2..??

2) part scary.. dunno tang mane yg scary 2 melainkn ayat rasmi ak.. so, ak trime.. and case closed..!!

3) will remain as that one.. :)